As part of finding my motivation behind all of this craziness, I found a graphic online that I liked very much. I modified it a bit to match my nickname — Rhino — and plan on making t-shirts out of it so I can spread the word. This is part of what I meant in an earlier post about shouting out your goal at the top of your lungs so absolutely everyone knows what you're shooting for. I'm shooting for the Finals, and I'll be competing for a top spot when I get there to join whatever combination of men and women they decide will get to join in.

Speaking of motivation, I was talking with Tracy tonight about why I'm wholly and completely jacked up about this CrossFit obsession. I believe that after a week I finally figured out the why behind the effort: I've never been great at any one particular thing. I've been very good at selling memberships, or speaking and relating with people, or organizing community service, et cetera. However, the point is, any physical goal that I've had has never led to any great or spectacular accomplishment. I would never last in an Iron Man competition, have never even thought of trying a marathon, and Triathlons just make me feel queasy whenever I think about them. So why CrossFit? Why can I get so jacked up and motivated about this without losing confidence in myself or believing that I wont' be able to do it? What makes this task so different from the other tests of strength and endurance?

I hope to find answers to these questions during my journey. I want to capture that feeling of when someone finishes a true test of strength and endurance at the end of an Iron Man race or a Marathon but in something that I really feel I have a shot at actually competing in. I've never had that kind of endurance but I have always been able to push my limits with lifting similar to CrossFit. I want to push myself beyond every limit I have ever set for myself. For now, I have to go get some rest before another long day, and I look forward to training later tonight.

— The Albino Rhino